So I finally decided to read some stuff and figure out what the North and South Nodes meant (mostly forgot a lot of it already, but I’m sure it’s seeding itself somewhere in my brain lol).
And I found out I have this REALLY ANNOYING configuration where everything points to: you want to chillax at home, but you have to work hard. Really hard. And you know it won’t be fun for you.
And then I have Chiron conjunct with my North Node and apparently that means “screw you, this uncomfortable life lesson? Well it’s even more uncomfortable and difficult”, which is bad enough in itself because it has to do with communicating and “putting myself out there” to people, but it also forms the apex to what is called Yod.
The supporting players in my Chiron-led Yod (1st house, gemini) are Jupiter (8th house, capricorn) and Saturn (6th house, scorpio—mars AND pluto in 6th for more work emphasis!). And that to me is a giant “F U you got something to reveal/teach to the world so you better work hard to do it because it’s your destiny!!!!”
And basically I am scared of dealing with people and I don’t want to lead anyone and this is my worst nightmare as exactly foretold that it would be. But my true dream and passion is to be able to tell people cool stories with my art and ideas and inspire them to lead good and passionate lives. xD
Help me this is the worst.